To this point I am nervous about graduation because I am now realizing there is only three months of school left. I’m nervous to graduate highschool because I feel i’m not ready to go off on my own but then at the same time I feel like i'm ready to go to college and experience what's ahead of me. Moreover some preparations I’ve done for post graduation is trying to finish my classes quicker so I won't have to worry about them the last two weeks of school. another preparation I’ve taken so far for post graduation is passing my senior exit interview. I am truly glad I got the opportunity to do it for early completion and passing because now I don't have to worry about doing it anymore. Other preparations I've done is buying my cap and gown plus the tassel form josten. From that point on that's when I realized I was about to graduate high school that feeling was unforgettable and cheerashing. However another thing I realized at that point was how expensive senior year was because in total for josten I had to pay sixty dollars and I didn't even buy a lot of things from josten. I’ve also put a forty dollar deposit on my granite ticket which made me even more excited to graduate because it was going to be the last time to hangout with my class before graduation. Putting my deposit for my grad nite ticket was a bittersweet feeling for me. On the other hand some other things I still need to do for post graduation is finishing my community hours. Yet I am sitting my goal to myself to finish my hours before the third week of march. I am most looking forward to attend the University I decided to go. I am excited to spend my four years in a University I chose. I feel like i'm ready to fly on my own not letting anything hold me back from getting where I want to be in life. I'm foward to explore what's outside of my home town which is surrounded of mexican culture and agriculture. I want to be surrounded by mixed cultures, new surroundings, explore new customs. I’m looking forward to walking up to a view of the college I chose to go to and my roommate which I hope have the same interest as I do. I hope to meet new people, make new connections, go to events in my college and just make it feel like home. I'm ready for what the future holds for me but I wonder how many bumps will I encounter on my way there. Looking back on my senior year I’ve noticed that you should care what others think of you and you should do you because at the end of the day you are the one to judge yourself. I feel like this year has taught me a lot more lessons that for sure will help me right now and in the future. However I am going to miss all the memories I made this year that I will cherish forever. Senior year has driven me to do more than what it is expected which has greeted me to new opportunities this year. Yet I feel like this year I’ve changed in the matters of habits. I now procrastinate less than my other years of highschool because I’ve learned that procrastination is not something you want to stick with with the rest of your life. All in all I feel like this year has just strived me even more to do my greatest in my four upcoming years of college.
Winter break was actually fun and productive at the same time. The first two weeks I tried to finish all my work so I could get it out the way. My goal was accomplished and I had yet again beat my enemy which is procrastination. Then the last week of winter break I went to Mexico to go visit family peacefully not worrying about doing last minute homework. During my stay in Mexico I got to visit my grandparents, cousins and aunts and uncles. I got to spend so much time with them that it was hard to say goodbye but overall It was a successful winter break. However as the winter break ended so did my first semester of my senior year. I loved how this year I did not have that much homework as i did from the previous year still that gave me time to finish more than expected. But so far reality hasn't struck me that this is my last first semester of my senior year. Maybe it's because i'm surrounded by good friends, do more community service and because I work makes me forget that i'm half ways through my senior year. Probably when I start buying my cap and gown I will eventually get hit by reality that i'm almost half ways to go off on my own leaving my childhood behind and look at the world with a new perspective.On the other hand something that I want to accomplish is to finish my Fafsa before February comes because the saying “Fafsa does run out of money the longer you take to apply” frights me. That is why i’m encouraging my parents to do their taxes as soon as possible.Yet something I need to this semester before graduation is to pass my senior exit interview. I am so nervous to present in front of a panel and messing up on some of my slides or going too fast. But I feel confident in myself that I will do better than I expected it to be. I just need to prepare my self and practice over and over again. On the contrary college applications went very well I got them all done just in time. I was so relieved after I was done applying to colleges because it had got me so overwhelmed with so many things I had to do just to apply.Over winter break I got noticed that I had got accepted to Sacramento and Fresno State. This was such an amazing news to get. Now i'm just waiting on the final say of my other three colleges that I applied which is exciting to me. Furthermore as of right now I haven't found a useful job for post-graduation yet. Still I do have a job as of right now which is tutoring kids at the STARS program in an elementary school. This gives me skills if I ever want to babysit a kid as a job for next year or how to tutor someone properly.
Something that has changed since my last journal entry is that I have accumulated less school work and more work thrown at me by UC/CSU’s application and applying to EOP. It was tough for me financially because I didn't qualify for any fee waivers so my parents had to pay for all my applications which was pretty awful. This made me furious because who ever gives out the fee waivers thinks that I come from a rich family with a lot of money to pay for each application which cost seventy dollars which accumulates to a lot. Yet in reality I come from a low income family because that amount my parents make in one year goes to mortgage payments, car payments, utility payments and stuff we actually need in our everyday lives. I just wished those people could understand the situation I am. On the other hand I am doing well in my classes since I am all caught up to date. So I am planning to finish in a faster pace so by the end of the semester I won't be all stressed out of how much work I need to get done. However something I need to accomplish before the end of the semester is to stop procrastinating because if I keep continuing this habit of mine toward the end of the semester I won't get work done. So I am trying to stop this habit by not doing work at the last minute. Also some of the difficulties that I am having with my senior project is that I have to make two of my pages over again because I made them into a blog page instead of a standard page which was my mistake. I wish someone would've taught me how to navigate and start this website because honestly I had to learn this on my own and by asking people. If I would of been taught well I would've known exactly what to do and not have to struggle knowing where everything had to be and what type of things I need to include in this website of mine. My learning facilitator was new last year so she didn't exactly know what we had to do so she set this aside and never went back to teach us about it again which was pretty frustrating. Something that I am enjoying about my senior project is that I get to write journals like these because I get to express myself about what has happen in senior year. Also something I am enjoying in senior year is participating in everything that goes on at school like the movie night, turkey bowl, girls powder puff, football games, food booths and much more. I enjoy doing this because I want to have an amazing senior year and never missed out in anything that goes on at school because this is and will be my last year in highschool. Besides senior year I am already taking steps to prepare for post graduation life like for example creating a budget and sticking to it. This will prepare me for next year because in college i'm going to have to save money since I won't have my parent there to ask for money. Lastly I am fortunate that I have my families support in my preparation for postgraduate because there ready for me to to be independent and go off to college to expand my education.
New Beginnings
So far my senior has been actually pretty amazing since i have been making new memories with new people since are senior class has got even more closer this year which is great. I feel like my senior is starting off to a good start since i have got closer to other people that i have never talked to and i have classes i absolutely enjoy. Yet i can definitely say that i'm at the point in my senior where i can't believe that i'm a senior. It seems like if it was not so long ago when i first stepped into this high school as a freshman not knowing where everything was or whom i was going to hang out with. But i know during this time it's going to hit me that soon enough i'm going living in a dorm in the following year and leaving on my own becoming more independently than i ever have. However i'm satisfied that to this point im on pace to graduate and walk with my class so his give me a sensation of relief. So far my senior has got me some what stressed from all the homework that i have accumulated during these few weeks and on top of that applying for UC and getting my writing assignments revised to send to colleges. Some of the homework that has accumulated so fast has been the senior project because i had start from the beginning since my last teacher did not really explain to us what to put in our websites. So far i got the basic necessities for the websites which are clubs and activities , about me and my journal. What i am most excited about my project is writing more journals like this one because i can just write what has happened so far in my senior year. I feel like i am going to enjoy this because it seems like a diary instead of a writing assignment. Another thing is that im excited to start applying to colleges and finding out where i am going to end up living for the next 4 years. When i hear the word college i get so excited yet some what scared. Im ready to enjoy my last year of highschool with all my fiends making fascinating memories for me to take home to college and trying to finish senior year strong so i can graduate with honors. Later on in the future i hope to graduate from college and having my bachelors of psychology. so i can later on become a counselor either at a school or a family's counselor so i can give guidance on a personal, social or psychological problems. I certainly hope in the future that i become successful and waking up every morning excited to go to my job. There is many more things i wish to come true in the future but from all of them i just hope to be happy with my life and what i do. |
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